Friday, October 24, 2008

One of those weeks!

This has been one of those weeks when you are glad it has come to a (semi) end!

Joshua stopped eating on Sunday night. This was followed with having to be picked up from school 40 minutes after arriving on Monday. He was exploding....and continued to do so until I don't even know. He also had to be picked up from school today for the same issue. He is still not eating great. Jeff kept Joshua on Monday and by Tuesday afternoon he was sick and exploding. TMI, I know! Jeff didn't leave for work on Wednesday night because of his -ummmm, issues. Now, I seem to have caught it as of Thursday morning. Again, TMI, I know. Flippin' Great!! Not much you can do about it, seems it is a stomach bug going around and last 3-5 days. Flippin' Great!! Jeff did go to work on Thursday night.

On Wednesday, I went back to my OB-GYN for the more in depth sonogram he had ordered. Let me back up a couple of see, the story goes like this........

On Monday Oct 6, after my recent female issues.....warning TMI doctor had ordered a sonogram. The following Tuesday, I went back in to see him about my results. It is never good when they can't just tell you over the phone what the results are. Jeff went with me to this appointment. My doc said that there was "something" on the sonogram that needed a closer look. It could be a fibroid or a polyp. Either way, we are to stop trying a Joshua a sibling until we find out what this "something" is. He ordered a hystrogram....aka a more in depth look at my innards to figure out what this "something" is. The hystrogram was on Wednesday of this week, Jeff didn't go because as I said earlier he was explod---well, you know. I was really hoping for a fibroid as I know the diagnosis and treatment would be easier. No such luck. It is a polyp....not just one but two polyp. I started crying when the doctor told me. I had a million questions going through my head and all I could do was cry. He advised me that polyp are rarely malignant.....but that didn't help to hear. All I could think of was, is this going to cause me to never get pregnant again? I thought I was okay with one child, but all of a sudden, I was panicking at the thought. My doc advised that they would require day surgery to remove. His office called today and my surgery is now scheduled for Nov 7.

All my life...since I was like 15, I have been told how hard it would be for me to get pregnant. How it would require fertility treatments. I never wanted to fully believe it. I remember when my doctor told us to start trying for Joshua and in 6 months if nothing then we would talk about next options. And I remember being sick as a dog for 2 months, getting negative pregnancy tests. I remember being angry that God was playing such a mean trick on me. Am I pregnant or am I not? And I remember the morning I took the test that came back positive. I was so in shock. I remember turning the test over thinking I had it upside down. And watching as two little pink lines appeared. And the reality of two pink lines. I bet I flipped that thing over in my hands 10 times before I really believed that there were two lines. And I remember going to the doctor who was just as shocked as Jeff & I about my being pregnant. And now I wouldn't trade that whole story for anything. Anything. But the thought that it may be the only story....well, I guess that I shouldn't be thinking that way. I am trying to stay positive. But, it is hard. I sit still for too long and I start there cancer growing inside me??? Or is it just ordinary polyps.....of a non-cancerous sort??? Are there ordinary polyps? I should know within about a week of the surgery what the results are of the biopsy.

I am thankful for Joshua. He is a great kid. From his refusal to come out of me, his colic, his refusing to sit up or crawl or walk. I am thankful for the temper tantrums he is learning to throw. There were times where I didn't think I would get to experience those things first hand, with my own child. I love when he says "mama" took forever for mama to come out of his mouth. In thinking about it, I guess he is my little miracle baby.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008


I finally have all the vacation pictures edited and some posted on Flickr.

The New Kids on the Block concert was cool. I had fun. They did old songs and new songs. They did the songs off their new album that I liked. Between the fan and music noise, my ears were ringing when we left. They did all the old dance moves along with some newer moves. It was funny at times. And the people......30 dressed like they were 15...15 years ago. I should go out like that more often as it was really fun. I will post some pictures on flickr soon from the concert.

Work is going. Just going. Not too fast, not too slow for me lately.

Joshua has been sickly this week. Not eating and such. I hope he gets to feeling better tomorrow or back to the doctor he will go. Jeff picked him up a leather biker jacket. We looked at them several times on our vacation but never seen one in Joshua's size. On Jeff's trip home from Alabama last week, he found one. Joshua looks super cute in it. We showed it to my mother & David tonight. They thought is was super cute too!

That is it for now...I need to get to bed.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Catching Up

Well, we did make it home from our trip. We did all have a good time.

In the time we have been back, not much else new has been going on. Just work for Jeff & I and school for Joshua.

Joshua has been doing pretty good at school. He did bite his first day back, but I warned them that morning that I was concerned he would. On Wednesday of last week, he was bit at school. A little girl, Chloe, bit him on the arm when they argued over a toy. She went to time-out while Joshua was tended to and got TLC. When she got out of her time-out she stormed right over to him and bit him again, on the same arm. Her mommy had to come pick her up and Joshua still has a mark on his arm from one of the bites. Then the next day at school, he is in the 2 year old room, and he gets whacked on the side of his head with a toy. Whacked. It looked like it hurt. By Friday afternoon the mark was gone.

Last weekend Jeff got home early on Sunday morning. And though I missed church I was very productive that afternoon. We converted Joshua's crib to a toddler bed. He has done great in it. He was so very proud of it being changed. He has yet to fall out of it. And stays in it in the mornings until we go into his room. He scored a monkey from Build-a-Bear on vacation in Hollywood & a giraffe from the San Diego Zoo and they have become his bed mates. They keep his bed safe for him during the day or so that is what I tell him.

Joshua is trying his best to become Mr. Independent. He seems to think that he can do everything that he wants to do by himself. Which is frustrating for me and funny to me, all at the same time! Like with putting pants on. He was to be done when both of his feet are in the legs. Not out the bottom of the leg, just in the leg. But he wants to hold onto Mommy to get his legs in there. We have been working on diaper conditions with him and what he has in his diaper...peepee or poopoo. The other night he kept saying both to me and I was really suprised that he did actually have both. Normally I get a "peepee" but not a "poopoo" from him when I ask. He has learned two songs...5 little monkeys jumping on the bed & pat-a-cake. He tends to like to try to sing both at the same time. Mr. Independent. I know that is the goal but sometimes I wish he could stay little and innocent.

Tomorrow....Sunday, Sunday, the New Kids On The Block concert. My sister won tickets at work and she and I and her two sister-in-laws are all going to the concert. It is at AAC tomorrow night. They don't take the stage until 8....that is freakin' late on a school night! Should be interesting. My sister dug around in her attic and found the box that has all of our NKOTB stuff from way back when NKOTB was cool. Our dolls were in Joey McIntyre and her Jordan Knight dolls. She had almost all of our posters in sheet protectors...what a dork my sister is. She also found some shoe strings that say Hangin' Tough on them and she put them in her shoes and wore them all day today out running around. Our buttons were in that box, as was a T-shirt. The NKOTB cards and a video that had stuff we had recorded on it. We watched the video last night.....what dorks! The video had degraded some being in her attic. My brother-in-law could stand to watch the video so he went to find something else to do. Today he turned 31 and joined my age!!!!

Next weekend is the pumpkin patch. Hopefully it will be more fun for Joshua than it was last year. We picked up his pirate costume the other night so he is set to go trickortreating this year. Should be fun.....I can't even explain how excited I am about Christmas this year!!!

Friday, October 3, 2008

Cailifornia trip

We had a nice visit with Jeff's family.

When we were getting ready to leave Las Vegas, Jeff's sister sent a text message saying that "dad has a lunch date". What?!?!? After 34 years he decided that he needed to have a date! After a year of planning our arrival without his knowledge he picked his birthday to have a lunch date! Major kink in the plans!!! We headed on in to California. It took a little longer than we had planned but was a fun quick trip. When we got to Jeff's parents we got to let the boys run free in the house...the not quite baby proofed house. They enjoyed playing especially with the coffee table....there will be pictures on flikr in a few more days. When Jeff's dad came in, he was said "who's this one?" Not realizing that it was Joshua....why would he....he wasn't thinking that it could be Joshua. When he seen Jeff, he realized that it was Joshua. He was shocked to see us! We visited for a while and had In and Out burgers for lunch. They were tasty! Visited more and then headed down to our hotel to check in. We stayed at a Best Western in Rowland Heights, CA, it was awesome!! Awesome!!!! It was nicer than the Stratosphere room we had. The service at the front desk was great. Parking was good. Cleaning/maid service was great. Towels were great. Comfy bed....I just can't say enough nice things about it. I highly recommend this hotel!

Tuesday night we went to the Pirates Dinner Adventure. It was very cool. A small theater. A big pirate ship. We were on the team for the purple pirate. It was great the villain is the only one who died. Lots of theatrics. Gunshots, cannonballs. They even picked Daniel as a pirate helper. The food was ehh...but then you don't go for the food, you go for the show.

The next day we took our Hollywood Tour. It was cool. We actually never got off the "hop off/hop on" tour. A two hour the heat on top of the open top double decker. It was cool, we seen a lot of places that we otherwise would not have. I would not recommend this tour though, it wasn't fully what I expected. It was hard to hear the tour guide throughout the tour.
At the Kodak Theatre there are little shops....we browsed around and ate lunch at Johnny Rockets and took the boys to Build A Bear. Joshua got a pirate monkey & Adam got a football dog. Joshua loves his monkey. He calls him mon-nee....Jeff says that is because Joshua knows he cost money. We had dinner with Jeff's parents and met our new brother in law. He wasn't hat I expected, but I just hope he and Steph work everything out.

Thursday morning we headed down to San Diego. After arriving at the hotel early and getting checked in, we headed down to Seaport Village. It was a nice area. It came recommended to us by a couple of my account managers from my last job. It is like a tourist area on the beach. Lot of shops and eateries. We also took a Land & Sea tour. We learned about parts of San Diego & out into the bay to see sea lions. There were tons of sea lions.

Today we went to the World Famous San Diego Zoo. It was a very cool zoo. Much cooler than the zoo's in DFW. They truly research and work towards maintaining a great zoo experience. At the SDZoo, the animals were up close, not far away. The giraffes were right there....the elephants right there...the hippos...right there. And their exhibits were amazing.

Tomorrow we head for home....rather to Las Cruses, NM where we are spending tomorrow night. Then Sunday we will head home from there.