one of those days

I haven't been sleeping well. I have had a lot on my mind lately and just lay in bed with my mind racing every night. I haven't climbed in bed before midnight in over a week. I am averaging going to bed around 2 which makes it difficult to get up early for work in a few hours. I am irritable and angry and frustrated all at once. I think that my hormones are out of whack again, with me coming off my birth control, there is nothing to regulate them. It frustrates me that without them, I am like this. I will talk to my doctor about it soon. I will call the office again tomorrow to follow up about getting my surgery scheduled. Sadly, I came off my birth control because it was costing a lot of money since it was not covered by insurance. I could have gotten on a daily pill, but that is just not an option for me...not a good one anyway. They tend to not work in controlling my other issues, that is why I have been on the patch for many years. I can't concentrate at work. My lack of concentration is just one of the things I have been stressing about. I am stressing so much that I feel like my blood pressure is way up. It doesn't take much of a rise for me to notice but lately I feel like it is way way up.

I have also been having an issue with my truck this week, an unusual noise. My truck occasionally has an odd issue that will come up. Nothing major has ever been wrong with it and I am thankful for that. I stopped by my brother-in-law's tonight and of course it wouldn't make the flippin' noise...that is what always happens. Joshua was in a great mood over there and played with everyone as much as he could given that they were trying to fix dinner. Joshua and I came home and he turned into this screaming kid. SCREAMING is an understatement for what he morphed into. He wanted a drink and I just couldn't get it fast enough. And apparently, he wanted milk and I gave him juice. I was trying to cook dinner and feeling very rushed with someone SCREAMING in the background. He wanted to be held and I can only do so much cooking holding a whining kid. I finally put him in his chair and got him some snacks...apparently they just weren't good enough for him and back to SCREAMING he went. He pushed the plate across the table, the cracker mix went flying all over. I smacked his hand for this and that went over oh so very well...SCREAMING ensued. He continued SCREAMING for about 10 more minutes and finally starting crying for his monkey. I went and got monkey and instantly it was quiet and good in Joshua's little world. If anything ever happens to monkey....it will be the end of my world. I never wanted him to be quite so attached to a lovey, but sometimes I appreciate monkey....and oddly enough....I tell monkey that I appreciate him often. Anyway...I get dinner done, get Joshua's plate together so it can cool. Set it up in front of him and he picks up a piece of chicken says hot and starts SCREAMING some more. Now, I know that his chicken is not hot...heck mine ain't even hot at this point. He pushed him plate away and instantly started whining to get down. After five minutes, I thought I would save my sanity and get him down. I got him down and he collapsed on the floor SCREAMING. Apparently he wanted to be in my lap. I got him up and sat him on my knee. I continued eating and he picked up his cup and started drinking. He emptied his cup and requested in a very nice tone that he wanted more juice. I got him tea instead and he didn't even know. Then he decided that he wanted his plate so I moved his chair all the way over next too me and he ate...one and half chicken strips...about 3 inches x 1 inch of chicken. That is all he ate for dinner. By the time dinner was finished, it was his bedtime....I stretched it 30 more minutes and then put him to bed. After dinner he and I played in the living room and he was happy as a clam....a clam who didn't eat much for dinner.

I am going to get the trash out and take something to help me hopefully get some sleep.

late update or is it early

So, there is a house four houses down from us. They have this little brown dog...by little, I mean maybe 5 pounds with all his hair...shaved down...maybe 3. So this little mutt as he will be further referred to has irresponsible parents. His parents let him run around the yard unsupervised and he therefore, runs into the street to chase your vehicle. Yes, 5 pounds vs. 2000....that is what is happening. And it is bound to happen sooner or later this mutt is going to get hit. I don't even slow down anymore when this mutt comes charging out. I am a dog lover, but for this dog, I am losing my patience. One day when Jeff was driving, the dog came running out. It was the first time Jeff had seen this and the mutts owner was standing by his truck laughing. Laughing?!? I told Jeff just to drive on and he was afraid of hitting this mutt. I am no longer afraid. I am concerned on another issue with this same mutt. One day the mutt's mom chased this dog down to my yard as I was getting Joshua out of the truck. She said they adopted this dog and then found out that he is not good with children. This mutt tends to nip/bite at her kids....so in turn....they let mutty run around outside....leash free...so he can chase my truck tires and bark. I am a dog lover but have never been a fan of 5 pound dogs. I like to have a dog...you know...a substantial use of space kinda dog. Dogs that don't yip & yap. I have called Animal Control but of course they come out and mutty isn't out and about. My HOA president says we should send a complaint via the website each day and/or speak with mutty's parents about this. Several complaints on this dog will get a Animal Control Tech out to speak with mutty's parents. Sometimes I wish that I didn't have Joshua in the truck with me and I would pick mutty up and take him to the FW Animal Shelter myself...it isn't that far from my house anyway. And I have a crate that mutty will fit in....hmmmm....to be continued....


And as a follow up to my post from Saturday....this is the story I was referencing...
Accused Pot Mom Denies Endangering Kids Police claim women smoked marijuana beside children

A-B-C-D

Today at work our portal (our main system which hold every-freakin-thing possible) went down. And then came up for 5 minutes and went down. And came up for two minutes and went down. This is pretty much how it was all day until 5pm when they took it down for good. Seems an update didn't go well. All of this made for an incredibly unproductive day. There will be lots to do the next few days to get caught back up.

Joshua had a great day. He has been singing "A-B-C-D, Now I know my A-B-C-D's" over and over again. He often sings the song and has now changed his version to this. He has gone through periods of singing L-M-N-O-P-Q-R-S-A-B-C and then for a while it was A-B-C-D-E-W-R-S-L-M-N-O-P. His newest version is very cute. It makes me laugh that he is catching on the last line about knowing his ABC's. He also has his own version of Twinkle Twinkle that he sings. He has been Daddy's buddy the last couple of days and it ain't bothering me one bit. It is nice to get to do a few things without him standing right up under me. And it has been a while since he has taken to Daddy so well.

We had a slight plumbing issue tonight. Jeff did get it fixed and the crisis was resolved. We have this extra faucet in our kitchen that gives you this nasty tasting water...like all the good stuff was taken out. It was leaking and he just bypassed that part of the pipes since we never use it. At least that is my girl version of what happened. We followed this up with pancakes, eggs & sausage for dinner all of which I made....and it was tasty as usual. I make a good pancake if I do have to say so myself.

Been a long day of waiting around and I am heading to bed.

snapshot sunday

Welcome to my first Snapshot Sunday here at Susanigan's blog.

School of metal fish I got this weekend for the bathroom.

Joshua had cereal with milk in a bowl for the first time this weekend.

He did pretty good overall with it.

I have also uploaded pictures on to flickr for your viewing enjoyment.